to be or not to be 15

I had my fifteenth birthday last month, and some people thought it was weird that I wanted to have a party at Chuck E Cheese. But they have great arcade games there. Actually there were more adults at my party than kids, and a lot of them went nuts on the games. I get along better with adults than kids my age anyway.

Kids my age a lot of times do stupid things like waste time trying to bug girls and show off. I always think about having a serious relationship, finding someone who likes the same things I like, and eventually leading to marriage way down the road. But I'm in no hurry to get there, I'd like to take things slowly. I have no interest in drinking, or taking drugs. I tried alcohol once; piss would have been better. I've seen a lot of reality tv shows where people do drugs and then act really really dumb, and then pass out like a corpse. What's the point of that? I know some people take drugs because they hate their lives, but they should spend some time in a foreign country and see if they don't think their lives are a lot better than they thought.

The point about age with Asperger's is that a lot of kids who have it are only two thirds the maturity of their chronological age. So therefore I'm more like ten? But I don't FEEL like ten to me. But my mom says I am. I guess because people my age are getting jobs, or learning to drive, or are more independent. I don't really know how different I am from other kids, because how I am seems normal to me.

When I'm in public, I think I'm actually very mature, or more mature than other people my age. I don't spaz out in public, and I don't swear. But a lot of times I don't notice how other people are feeling, and I don't respond to them. When something bugs me, I try to ignore it until it drives me nuts and then I explode.