Talking to a friend

It's been awhile since I last talked to my friend Micah; he lives all the way in California. I called him for the first time in a long time, probably months. I grew up with him before I moved to Pennsylvania, he's an aspie like me. It's a miracle that we both met because I didn't think I would meet someone who was very much like me, now that I reflect on it. Back then all I was thinking was that I have a friend who has the same interests I do. We kinda still do now. We both like art, video games and really good movies. He likes action movies more, but I prefer horror thrillers usually.

I was happy to be able to talk to him again, it was good to hear from him. I rarely get to see my friends nowadays, most of them have moved away or I moved away from them.

Some of my friends just moved back here, close by, even though they aren't right next door anymore. I am really happy to see them. I will call them the R family, the mother, father, Amanda, Angel and Michael. Their whole family was friends with my whole family and I'm really glad they're back. Michael is friends with my little brother D and he is really happy that they're back. Amanda is a couple years older than me and Angel is a couple years younger, but they are two of the greatest friends I've ever had. So is Micah, but I don't get to see him anymore. But I consider them all my best friends.

So I'm starting to get back in touch with all my friends again. It's making me very happy. I was really sad when they were gone, the girls especially were the last good ones I had that lived close. Now that they are back, things are going great. I was pretty depressed having all my friends gone, but I'm especially appreciative that they are back.

It's kind of hard for me to make friends because I'm a little bit shy. My mom would not let me go out by myself, and I don't like to do it anyway because the world is not a safe place. I am probably more at risk than regular people because I don't know how to look out for myself. I don't know how to do things like normal people do. I think I'm abnormal a bit. With strangers, I tend to be very formal, I try to be a like an adult. But sometimes I feel like a little kid. I don't know the in between. I feel a little bit weird, but I usually feel happy about who I am. I think I just get depressed because I think there is a lot of grumpiness around me and I don't get to see my friends enough.

I would rather not go to school because I think it is a hell hole. You take a bunch of random people and coop them up in a building for seven hours and that is a set up for something bad to happen. Some schools are ok because they can be different from normal traditional public schools. Any one who has been at one of those regular schools or knows someone who is has heard of something bad happening at a school. A good school would be where the employees are nice and really cares about the kids, so that if one of the kids misbehaves or hurts one of the other kids, then proper measures are taken. And no harsh punishments for little kids. I think aspies would really suffer because they don't understand the rules and they would get in trouble a lot. I think aspies should have a special school just for them where the adults are specially trained to understand them.

Right now I'm schooled at home and that's the way I like it, but I would like a chance to make friends with other people, especially people like me. When there are a lot of people around me, I feel kind of anxious. I was a vacation bible school last week, which was ok because it was just one week for a couple of hours per day, and there was only a small group of teenage boys who were very nice. I think they were taught to be nice because they go to that church a lot. Some of the kids in the other classes were strangers to the church who just came for the food and the games, and they were more wild. I don't like it when groups of kids act wild and misbehave. When all the classes mixed together, I just stayed near my friends Amanda and Angel and then I was ok.